Grief and Workouts
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I am determined to break the cycle.
In 2000, my dad's father(my remaining grandpa) started thinking that he knew better than his doctor, how to treat himself. By the time I'd moved back home from L.A., he'd lost too much weight(Dr. told him to loose 20lbs, he'd lost almost 40)and was self medicating. I was shocked that no one else had noticed, but not seeing him for 7 months, the change must have seemed more drastic to me. Anyway, self medication can be as devastating as becoming an a addict. Why do people think it's OK to take someone else's prescribed medication, and not take what your Doc gives you? Oh the frustration. Grandpa was 84 in early 2002 when he died. I wonder how much longer & better his life would have been had he followed direction.
My dad is in his mid-60s, and as with all his health issues, he's running ahead of schedule. How could he have witnessed what his father did, and repeat it less than 4 years later? Is it a man thing? An old people thing(although 65 really isn't old)? I'm afraid it's a personality thing, and I DON'T WANT IT!
I bought a "pilates machine" with my last Christmas check from grandpa. That winter I worked that machine & myself and kept out of a depression. Mr.Man & I moved back out here after his mother died later in 2002(she was 79). The machine pretty much sits in the corner, it had it's own room before and we're in a much smaller place out here. Yesterday I found out the "crap" my dad's pulling back home.(EXPLETIVES!!!). So this morning, I pulled out the machine. God, I hope it works again.
I don't seem to have the family addictive personality(tobacco, alcohol, food), but I also don't seem to have a drive to "succeed". Still looking for my bliss.
It's raining here, what a perfect day for homemade chicken soup. And Sunday High Tea will be substituted with Hot Cocoa & Somores. You'll need your Wellies today.
Chinquapin
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Thanks for your ear, the staff at The Nut House doesn't need to get burnt out listening to MY issues.
Posted by chinquapin2
at 12:39 PM PST
Updated: Monday, 6 December 2004 6:44 PM PST
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